Well, hello. Today I am in an excellent mood. Who knows why... I'm probably bipolar. But that's a much later topic isn't it?

What's new? Well, my boyfriend is still out of town. I really hate it but the only way he can make "good" money is being away for long periods of time. I miss him a lot and I am afraid that the distance will kill our relationship. We have only been together for 3 months now... he's been gone for a month of it. Something about today tells me everything will be alright and I worry about non sense shit. Maybe I am being blind or I am pushing all the worry out of my mind and distracting myself.. but he tells me he wants me and only me and I either believe it or not. I have no choice but to believe it because why would he stay if he didn't want just me? If he wanted someone else; he would have broken up with me, taken all of his stuff from our place since we live together... but I think I just have too much negativity in my head. I must stay positive. I love him and he loves me. If something happens, it would hurt me but I've been hurt a lot and I always got through it.

What else? I need a better job. This one isn't cutting it but I have a horrible reputation now apparently. One little misdemeanor over being at a job a week and not IDing someone...and it messes you up everywhere.

My little Allison has been... well a little brat. And no one else is allowed to call her that. I am her mother so I can call her what I want. :) But she's a little handful. She talks so much now and I can't believe some of the things she says. Mostly, MOMMY MOMMY MOMMY. lol. Of course, Dale isn't in the picture anymore. He hasn't seen her since Christmas. 6 months now. It's kinda funny now he use to say if he was a Father he would be such a great dad... Liars will be liars! :) I really don't mind though. My boyfriend has been a great father to Allison. She doesn't remember who Dale is. Shes too young to care who he is, she just knows my boyfriend plays with her and actually pays attention while Dale... just pays child support.

Besides the fact that I am behind on rent and bills.. my life isn't that bad. I barely have any friends and don't do anything but work a couple hours and then come home... but that's life after becoming a Mother I guess!

FIRST!

What do you do when you're so sarcastic people take you seriously? You have to apologize a lot. You have to say the phrases: I'm not being serious. I'm joking. I'm kidding. You know how tiring that is to remind people that you joke about life because there's no point in being serious all the time? It's annoying. It makes me wanna punch you in the face. (Am I kidding or not?)


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